Here I am again, trapped
inside these walls
I built myself
to protect my heart and soul -
love, hate, bullshit - wait -
oh god, there's so much more -
school, work, some stupid jerk -
fuck it all -
tears falling on my kneecap
as I curled myself into a ball
but those tears were just another brick -
to add to my wall-
thank you, pink floyd -
along with her hatred flamed because
I COULD NOT HELP HER WITH HER PROBLEMS.
I'm not that good, you know -
my heart is more like pissed on snow
than freshly-fallen,
turned to slush by all my tears
over events of these past two years -
love and security buried in the ground,
no more hugs when Dad's found
a new thing to bitch at me about -
about being such a freak of nature -
I mourn the passing of old happiness,
the ripping out of my soul -
but rejoice for me, my friends, for now I know I'm whole...
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