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I Love Once we fell in love, and all was good when we first kissed, first touched, first told one another that we loved each other. Seems too good to be true when I felt that you were my one and only. Your loving ways only changed that fateful day, when I tried to hold your hand and take u to your class and kiss u before I leave. Your hands weren't the hands that had touched my heart, your feelings that wasn't meant for me, your eyes weren't the one whom I saw my dreamz come true, 'cause I love you don't mean a damn thing to you.
Every night, I stand awake with all my emotions jammed up into my mind, and all you ever told me was, "forget about me"," you will find someone better", I guess it was some kind of positive quotes from you. But I guess I was wrong, a week after you left me in shambles, seeing you walking with another man in the early morning, smiling like you always do with him. I'm so confused as I tried to piece back what was left of my heart. A week later, in the morning, as I sat and you came and talk to me, one of your "friend" told you someone came to see you, your eyes sparkled, as like you were joyful (when I surprised you during our 6th month anniversary), you ran down to see him. Your "friend" or who the hell, I still believe that it wasn't what it seemed to be when you were near him. Feeling like I'm was left behind, you weren't the person that once was mine, a person whom I believed in every word and every situations. Leaving me with nothing to believe in, nor a loving feeling again, I just lost you, 'cause I love you don't mean a damn thing to you.
After a long 4 months to think, stress and cry to relieve my pain, I never even thought about you. My life was back to normal as I guess that I would jus move on. On my 16th birthday, a rare call from you was directed to me. I never thought I would ever hear your voice again. How would I feel? I sat down with no emotions, just the anger that was left behind. With my only replies to your questions were, "What you been up 2? -uh huh- "How's life?" -uh huh- "You're the biggest dork…", -Yea I no I the biggest dork (sarcastically)- "I guess your busy, I'll let you go" -a click from my finger to hang up was the last thing I could do- Maybe I acted unrationally, should've given you a chance to tell me wutz up. But this pain was still portrayed toward you, I guess I just didn't want to hear from you. Let me be, Let me free, Let me still believe, cause the words I love you don't mean a damn thing to you.
May, my last month before I leave high school, and a day that I always dreamt of going to prom with you. But a Friday, a day when each of my homiez just didn't want to go, a little convincing …we decided to go…a day b4 prom! As I was happy to know that I was going, I asked this one female, very bright, very shy, to prom with, she smiled as her friends were delighted to see that I asked her. After 5th period, I went to my locker to ask for her number after her approval, I found a letter. A letter that just left me thinkin'. I looked at it like it was a "new-feeling", a dream that was once pondered but never thought about. In your letter, you told me you went with 3 b/f'z in that 6 month span! And that you always bring up my name in conversation with ur "friends" & "b/f", You never new y u did, u told me u loved me, you told me you read "our" 6th month anniversary card I had given to you, and you realized that you lost your first true love. I didn't know what to think, or what to say-I went through hell jus to wonder wut I should do! I took u to prom anywayz, with everyone, including the girl that I should've been there as a date rather than a person that just danced. I lost my voice in the process talkin to you that whole Saturday just getting prepared for you and my other "date". ::sigh:: a Man like me whom given up so much, risked of being bioched at, being dissed at, being disapproved by the other people all for u-'cause I love you still don't mean a damn thing to you.
After that night, your phone calls were frequent, my heart was starting to fall in love again. But I wonder why I'm still loving you?, Didn't I learn from the past?, You hurt me and that you had gotten over me real quick?! I dunno, maybe I'm a person who has nothing to lose..every call we all end up coo n all, when we hang up..i would say…"I miss you" or "I Love you" but your only reply is -uh huh-, -ok-, -bye-. Damn doesn't it kill someone like that? Someone who jus ask is for some kind of words of inspiration! At school, we talked, I went to a daym school play with you, all cause you no I still cared, with your "best friend" taggin' along, when all I wanted was some quiet time with you. 'Cause I love you don't mean a damn thing to you.
When I want to go out with you, -you can't go-, or I would call it, AOL 24/7. You're really famous in them Vietnamese Chat. You and your "friends" from around the damn nation, some perverts, some talk hella shiet, n some just treat you like the queen of dat b/s room. I guess your friends are more important than u and I? I guess I given up a hell lot more than any of your "b/f", I believe you won't ever find another man that would do that, because its just me. And when 1of ur viet chat "friend" who played a prank ( played out his sucide) just to get to u. I was there to comfort u, and tha words "UR WORDS DON'T MEAN N E THING TO ME, I'M SORRY TO SAY!!!"… Maybe u think I'm dumb fock, but I bet n e female in this world would want me for the things I would do-all for love-,cause for u, I love you don't mean a damn thing to you.
To end this, Who was the first to tell you "I Loved You"…..I did!!!, who said "I needed u"….I did!!!, who said "I want you back??"…..after we first broke up…I did!!!…Who said…(in my eyes) "you are beautiful"…who else…I did!!!!….who said "I want to spend forever with you"…..NOPE, it wasn't me…u did!!!! cause that love -u didn't even truly believe!!…who would think I want to say all this to you …my sacrifices, my pain, my lonely heart, my only wish was your love, you didn't even see it…MAYBE it's you and your DAMN vietnamese chat friends online, u and her following me around every room I'm at, acting like a buncha ass'z! You changin' your profile, just to "play" with my mind……u haven't even called in weeks, damn it sounds so familiar…I lost all hope, I lost all my dreams, lost my love, lost my faith, lost hope, but I never lost myself -yb- My love is for that someone else…n your words DON'T MEAN A DAMN THING TO ME!…CAUSE I LOVE YOU DON'T MEAN A DAMN THING TO U!
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